Cancelled!

Yeah, so... that happened! (as well as an election and a nor-easter, y'know...)

Chris and I felt relieved when they made the call. 

I had already decided to run it if it were still on (as I wrote in my last post), and Chris was leaning towards running it, but we were both having a hard time living with our decision. 

I am grateful for the intervention from so many level-headed people for whom it was easier to disregard to marathon, as well as for the final call from the Mayor's office. 

Here is my "statement" on Facebook.

That was five days ago. My thoughts have not changed. 

Anyway, I'll keep writing so that means more musings to come, including:

• thoughts on getting another year to train
• volunteering post-Sandy
• thoughts on transitioning from a casual Facebook post to a more structured blog post
• new running shoes purchase - spoiler alert: owie!
• my trip to the Marathon expo plus a look inside the marathon goody bag passed out to the runners

Recovering

Yeah, I haven't really run in two weeks since the 18-miler. This morning, I went on a 6-mile run in CP and it felt great to be back on the road.

Something that has always helped me get through tough runs is thinking, "I will not regret this run."
And this has yet to be proven false.

Training Mode & Motivation

Sure, some time has passed since my last post. But my life has been no different except for learning to plan around my training. I've been trying to get myself to run three to four times a week along with one strength-training (ballet cardio) workout, but with the hot and humid weather, it's been difficult to get motivated. There were two consecutive weeks where I did manage to nail the aforementioned training schedule, but then the next week saw me only run once.

Still, this is definitely the most active I've been in a long time, where this marathon training is basically demanding of me at least four workouts a week. I haven't followed a schedule like that since my sophomore year of high school, where I was taking up to six ballet classes a week. More and more, I realize how inactive I have become since high school - and even though I did not become a great ballerina, I realize how much more fit I was back then.

So I try to remember my more disciplined ballet days as a way to get motivated to shape up and leave this marathon with as few injuries as possible. Another motivation has been the build-up of the summer Olympics and the coverage of many Olympic athletes. I've read blurbs on Ryan Lochte and Nastia Liukin (recently retired, bless her heart) - and as I read about their training schedules, I see their determination that has led them to stick to the practices to be able to compete. Insane talent and power helps too - but as I'm not seeking Olympic levels of recognition, I think their determination and discipline are what hits me most.

Finding the discipline

My first race was the Allstate 13.1 Half-marathon in New York about a month ago on the last weekend of March. I signed up for this race in early November. The registration took place a few days after a group of us traveled around Brooklyn and Manhattan, trying to catch multiple sightings of our loved ones on the streets, running the ING NYC Marathon. The energy of the crowds that day, even at the more humble spots like mile 19 in east Harlem, was enough of a push for me to register.

I made simple monthly goals. I needed to get used to running five miles by the end of November. December would be my month to hit seven. January, nine. February, eleven. And I would run the thirteen at the end of March.

My focus was on avoiding injuries and finishing the long course. A fast pace was out of the picture. So was strength-training. I didn't want to strain myself. I thought I was fine, and in the end, I was fine.

This full marathon seems a bit different. I'm slowly coming to grips with the fact that I have to find some form of cross-training or strength-training - and actually do it for as long of a stretch prior to the marathon.
I think I've found something - ballet cardio - and I suppose a good practice is to do little work outs on the days I don't run. Like today.

I came home, dinner plans cancelled and an evening freed up to go on my second run since the half (needless to say, I haven't started training). I got into full running gear only to find that my shoes weren't in my apartment - or maybe they are, and they're hiding really well. Of course, an inner glee rose. "I don't have to run today!" That glee quickly went away as what followed was an excruciating 15 minutes of back-and-forth: "I should run today..." - "I don't have to run today..." - "But I should run today - mrrm..." - "There's always tomorrow..."

Eventually, I made the decision to do the cardio.

Afterward, I ordered a somewhat healthy dinner from a Malaysian restaurant.

It's a nice thought to imagine myself becoming more disciplined, but I realize much of this discipline will be found in the smallest and most boring decisions I make on a daily basis.